Monday, July 10, 2017

She is Solitary Revisited

 I wrote 'She is Solitary' about six months ago. When I looked at it today I could see it is  in need of  edit-makeover.  I like it when that happens!
 The subject I write about is very complex and no matter how hard  I  try, I'm hardly ever satisfied with the end result.  I  am driven by  'unwavering dedication to Truth above all else',  impulse.
 I care not one iota about how I appear to others -  and am the first to admit that self-mastery is a process. 

I never hid the fact I had unsolicited Kundalini Shakti awakening,  and for many years didn't make any  final assertions.
 When I started writing in this blog,  in the profile section I wrote (I was)  "Student of Life".
 Few years earlier,  I  wrote in website where spiritual types  congregated that  I was a "spiritual baby".   I  said this because I  meant it. I didn't know anyone who was talking about same type of Soul-journey and had no one living  for support, no one I could  'check results' with.
That changed once I discovered Aurobindo's work.

If interested to revisit She is Solitary?

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Between Two Rages

In 1992 I wrote  article  titled: Between Two Rages - One Woman's Perspective on Abortion.  It didn't get published, and I figured it was 'too far out', even for a magazine whose title was New Dimensions.  Maybe if it was authored by a male, it would have been a different story?  Maybe not, because  months later  the magazine went bankrupt.

No matter - I'm just glad I have a photocopy of the original. . .Glad, because I can look back and see where my heart-mind was at the time.  Glad, I can show that true spiritual growth includes the dimension of caring for others.
Patience and heart-mind integrity play an important role in our Soul evolution. . . Based on personal experience, I see it takes great many years (if not lifetimes)  of including and integrating all aspects of  one's being . . .not just a knowledge of the mind but also of the heart and Soul.
One who surrenders to the Divine (within) relies on  Grace to help us patiently endure  years upon years of  continuous psycho-emotional demolition and construction (within one's interiority).  We feel the presence of  God's Grace, that's why we  trust we are 'in good hands'.

One who is curious  may find this snapshot of where I was at in 92'  interesting? (I will omit sentence here and there).

In the spirit of  Love and Truth I would like to offer my thoughts on this issue.  But first....(skip)
I believe I have lived in new consciousness for quite a few years now. I think the turning point was when I realized 8 years ago that the pseudo-reality  of the television world no longer represented and supported my world-view. I rejected the materialistic god years ago.

To me, the issue of abortion is as important as everything else that does nor support and sustains a healthy physically and spiritually the lives of all citizens of the world.
God, or the Spirit is that dimension of reality through which all life manifests itself. We all live within that awesome Intelligence. . .Everything is interconnected, but I wanted to know how that works. I needed some answers first.
I had to know why  half of all deaths of our species are due to starvation. Half a billion - mostly women and children - are chronically malnourished.
I needed to know, why nearly 90% of U.S. cropland is devoted to grow feed for livestock.
I had to know why there are millions of illiterate citizens in North America. Millions more suffer from psycho-emotional problems - severe enough to interfere with normal living. . .This list is much longer.

To me all this clearly points to the fact that the present stage of development does not present a healthy picture of ourselves.
I see the ignorance of our religions, cultural and social beliefs systems. I see the 'fruits' of the 'original sin' syndrome -- powerless and tainted species, where subjugation of women, pornography and its related sex crimes and sex addictions got their roots.
I see the lamentable results of the blindness stemming from the "man above nature" philosophy.
I see clearly the appalling sin of racism, the illness of alcoholism and substance abuse.
Life is too chaotic, too painful, too meaningless when one lives within the illusion this is all there is to life.  .  . Life void of spiritual reality.

When I look at the larger picture, a snap-shot of where we're at, the issue of abortion does not seem any more terrible than any other issue.
I see a reflection of our unresolved (karmic) personal, social and religious issues.
We have many lessons to learn. . .
In an ideal society, abortion would not be needed. But we do not live in an ideal world. Birth control does fail, women do get raped, mistakes are made, teens are sexually naive and so are many adults. At this time, I stand on the "choice" side. Some day this will become a non-issue.
The human family needs to find within ourselves the courage and look at the ugliness, and realize how our unconscious impulses have allowed us to participate in this (collective) mess.

I did it. . .and what a painful and solitary path that is. I learned that to know anything on an intellectual level only is meaningless - that's only half the story.  It's the heart/gut knowing that counts because its energy aims 'higher' . (skip)

I rejoice in knowing that I will never stop learning (evolving).
I can sometimes sense the vastness of Loving Intelligence that is patient and benevolent, and I like that.

*  This post was inspired by the song  titled SOS performed  by Dimash  (below)

Sunday, May 28, 2017

Honoring Another Artist

I wish to share another Epic performance (in my native language).
 This one is titled   'Konie',  and  is performed  by Natalia Sikora.   I never heard and saw anything like it!
Natalia is also a very gifted stage actor,  this is why this performance is so deeply  unique.

'Konie'  means 'Horses' (phonetically sp.: 'black/charne konie'), which  symbolize extremely painful emotional inner turmoil and the desire to overcome it.

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Honoring Artist

Time for a change of pace!

First time today I heard   Dimash Kudaibergen's voice -- artist from Kazakhstan -- and  am in awe!
This artist has  not only incredible vocal range, but also  emotional!

There is so much suffering in the world,  there is also room for beauty. . .
Today, I want to share  Dimash's  magnificent performance of  S.O.S. D'un Terrien en Detress.
It's in French. I Goggle-searched and found English translation.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Spiritual Evolution Beyond Nirvana

One who is interested in  Enlightenment grounded in multidimensional evolution and transcendence -- as revealed by the eternal self-Soul - will find the following excerpts interesting.  The meaning couched within these words  will  resonate with one who is committed to  developing their  spiritual intelligence.
In addition: I will add a reflection from the eternal self-Soul perspective that reaches beyond Nirvana.

These passages are from book penned by Ken Wilber, titled One Taste.

Well, anybody can say, 'All things are One,'  'All sentient beings posess Spirit,' 'All things are part of a great unified Web of  Life,' or 'Subject and object are nundual.' Anybody can say those things. The question is, do you directly and actually realize that? Are you speaking with any sort of awakened authority, or are these just words to you?
What if they are just words? What does it matter?
Well, spiritual realities involve not merely statements about the objective world, but also statements of  subjective facts, interior facts -- and for those statements to be true when they come out of your mouth, you must be directly in touch with those higher, interior facts, or else you are not being truthful, no matter how 'correct' the words might sound. It is the subjective state of the speaker, and not the content of the words, that determines the truth of the utterance. (...)

Most of my books are written about systems theory, Gaia, the Great Mother, ecopsychology, the new paradigm, and so on, are written with reference to the gross, waking state. You can easily tell  this because  they never mention any of the subtle realm phenomena -- nothing about the various meditative states, samadhis, interior illuminations, the extraordinary states of dream yoga, transcendental awareness, and so on. Nor do they mention the even higher states of causal formless. So when they claim to be 'holistic' and 'nondual,' they really aren't, not in the full sense. At best, they are at the level of nature mysticism, where consciousness is confined to union with the gross, waking state. This is fine as far as it goes, it just doesn't go very far. It is the shallowest of the spheres of mystical Oneness in the Great Nest of Spirit. (....)

So when somebody at the subtle level says 'All things are One,' they mean something different than when gross-level theorist says that. (...) Usually, when someone whose access consciousness is confined to the gross realm says 'All things are One,' they mean something like systems theory or ecopsychology -- they mean all empirical phenomena are aspects of a unified process. But when someone also has access to subtle-realm consciousness, they mean all empirical and all subtle phenomena are aspects of a unified process. This is much deeper and wider realization, which transcends and includes the gross realm.
So their consciousness is actually stronger.?
In a sense, yes. Their awareness does not blank out at the threshold of the dream state. Because of their own development and evolution of consciousness, they can remain 'awake' even as the dream arises -- or they can enter profound states of savikalpa samadhi and not go blank. And this 'strength'  of consciousness becomes even greater at the causal stage of development, because you reach a type of 'constant consciousness' or 'constant witnessing capacity,' which means you are 'awake' or conscious through all three major states -- waking, dreaming, and deep sleep. So consciousness becomes stronger and stronger, persisting through more and more changes of state, and this is reflected unmistakably in your life, your work, your theorizing, and so on. These signs are hard to miss. (...)

At the subtle stage you have access to a variety of forms of deity mysticism -- interior illuminations, nada, shabd, various samadhis or meditative states, saguna Brahman (Deity with Form), prayer of the heart, dream yoga, most of the bardo realms, and so on. This is the subtle realm of deity mysticism. Because the subtle-soul transcends but includes the gross-sensorimotor realm, at the level of deity mysticism you also have access to nature mysticism, so those are not exclusive. But the lower nature mystics tend to think you're nuts.
And the causal. . .
Is the home of formless mysticism -- pure Emptiness, the Abyss, the Unborn, ayn, nirdoh, nirvikalpa, jnana samadhi, classical Nirvana or cessation. This experience  (or 'nonexperience')  of cessation is unmistakable and indelible. And when somebody has directly experienced that state, and they are writing books spiritual books, believe me, they will write about that! And you will intuitively feel that they know what they're talking about. (....)

Once you push through causal formlessness -- which is the home of the pure Witness -- then the Witness itself collapses into everything that is witnessed through all three states. 


I do agree  that  what Ken Wilber describes is true, and/but need to add that,  Nirvana is not the last rung on the evolutionary ladder.
To truly understand what Soul-level Liberation means/is about, one has to be Initiated (on the Energy level)  to a much deeper  Mystery,  before one discovers what it means to be One with all beings in the visible and invisible domains, and what True Union of the Soul with the Essence of the Absolute Supreme,  means/is like.
Aurobidno's  words highlight  what needs to happen before one reaches this  (deeper) stage.

"By "void" is meant emptiness clear of all content except existence pure and simple. Without that one cannot realise the silent Brahman.  +   The silence still remains, but if you become full of force, light, Ananda, knowledge etc., you cannot call yourself blank any longer.

In addition: The following teaching 'on mechanism of descent' , is   something - as far as I know - no one else has written about.  Again,  I have no choice but say 'I bear witness to this, because this happened to me on the Soul level':

The Descent of Peace (Sat) the descent of Force of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are the four things that transform nature. It is not really the plane that descends, it is the Power and Truth of it that descends into the veil between the material and it no longer exists.  
Divine condition descends from above, is given by the Divine. (...) The higher spiritual planes create their own formulations in the subliminal in the depths within us. (but)  To know them, the Supermind must descend into us.

 * Aurobindo's qoutes from

Thousands of years of cross-cultural support from contemplative mystics/scientists bear witness to the fact that Enlightenment is not 'personal' . . . it is for the benefit of all beings in the visible and invisible realms, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself.

* Edit-expanded note:

I have written  about  'Cosmic Tonglen Duty'  in various posts, this is why don't feel the need to  bring it up  constantly --  even though  this is the context within which much of what I write about  arises  (on the energy level).  So briefly - without going into details of the hows' and whys' of it -   I want to add the following reflection. . .

One cannot know what  the 'beyond nirvana' truly (literally) means, unless one's Soul-Force (Universal Body) is on 'Cosmic Tonglen Duty'.  This happens when one's nervous system (all chakras)  uncoils to infinity. . . this is why I don't expect  many folks to  embrace the meaning within the words I write with full acceptance.
Maybe, if I were a male,  it would have been a different story.

Then again:

This blog has visitors from South Korea, China, and other lands, and I marvel.  .   .
Blessings to one and all  brave souls that stop by here 💗

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Quick Note (expanded)

* Edit-expanded 23/04
I am pretty busy with domestic affairs   - organizing, purging, etc. - because in few weeks I will be living in different city on the eighth floor.
I am excited!

I am glad I decided to edit-improve couple of very poorly written  posts today  (the post  originally titled : Synchronicity Post-Metaphysical, got changed to: Synchronicity Soul-Level Reflections).

 Some think what I describe (genuine mystical experiences)  is not 'real' - and I'm okay with that, since I am writing for souls who see value in what I share.
If curious . . .

*  Edit note

Decided to include couple of  qualifying quotes from Gopi Krishna and Aurobindo, to show that  Soul-Force  demands of us (ascended mystics) that we share our Depth's data results for the benefit of others.  We do this to demonstrate that the Ultimate Transcendence is beyond one's individual existence (this is why we do this without attachment to results).
We do this to remind folks that causes set in motion in one incarnation yield their results in later incarnation.

On 'mechanism of descent', Aurobindo said the following (and I agree)

The Descent of Peace (Sat) the descent of Force of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are four things that transform nature. It is not really the plane that descends, it is the Power of Truth of it that descends into the material and the veil between the material and it no longer exists.

Gopi Krishna in his book titled Kundalini for the New Age wrote this (and I agree)

The men and women who have undergone this transformation and now have this expanded consciousness and bright imagination are known to be in the Samadhi state of oneness with the cosmic consciousness. All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition.

Friday, February 24, 2017

She is Solitary

Earlier this month I wrote   Emotions and Motivations... in today's post will attempt to unpack further this topic.
 One's True Nature is  discovered  through  Divine we see that we have  risen above the male/female distinction due to direct recognition that one's  eternal self-Soul  is identical with God's Essence.
This revelation is the highest, most inclusive  and most infinite  realization.
At this stage we have the spiritual authority and  are qualified  to assess  your claim to enlightenment.  Telling me you 'killed the Buddha' or that 'everyone is Buddha', has nothing to do with this challenge. It has nothing to do with showing me your 'consciousness model', either:

 This is about the subject of  Communication of the Divine from the source of its Nature (within the human body-mind-soul system).  Using high-profile or alluring  spiritual language does not evidence wisdom.  If you know the difference between Self realization and spiritual Illumination, you will be able to talk about it without using concepts, and in  simple words  describe what introduced itself to the consciousness of your awakened (eternal) self-Soul.  I  will trust your words if you show  how / what forces got you to this point. I want to see empirical evidence-description of your own Soul-journey through Light and Sound, and hear what  it means to be 'lovingly attached to the Beloved'. Describe how you gained access to, and received direct Transmissions  of the Deepest Divine Truth.  (* I shared my with Kwan Yin encounter and what transpired - to give one example).
(Your)  Mental-level translation of  ascended mystics texts'  is not it. . .  Please show me how you discovered the Widest, Deepest and Highest reality, and I will believe you. Describe How the Divine Power-Intelligence guided you, and I will be glad for you. . .If you know -- based on your own Soul-experiences -- what the following verse from Yajur Veda means exactly, you will be able to give very specific descriptions  of  your own  Initiations into the  Divine Light-Sun of the Godhead:

           "I have arisen from earth to mind-world,
            I have arisen from the mind-world to heaven,
            from the level of the firmament of heaven
            I have gone to the Sun-world of Light."

On same theme the following verse is from  Rig Veda.

           "Beholding the higher beyond the darkness we came
            to the divine light Sun in the Godhead, to the
            highest Light of all."


  Divine Union is not a mental/cognitive thing. . . Spiritual intelligence is above/beyond rational and psycho-emotional intelligence.
 Divine vision eliminates individuality.  The process that leads to an actual unification  of the (impersonal) Soul with  its Source  takes a very long time and is not for one who is not ready to submit one's lower impulses to the Divine within.
Enlightenment  is not what one thinks it is. . .It most definitely is not a collection of abstract ideas.
Truth that is a living experience is  challenging but also transforming. * Transformation is a shift to a higher domain. 

In the transcendent domain (Soul plane)  we discover that the manifest world is not outside  of the Universal Mind / I AM.
At this zenith-point  of one's Soul evolution, the outer and inner are united and integrated within one's interiority, this is why it is possible to word-describe how that happens.  (Genuine) Ascended mystics of all traditions wrote from this Kosmic address.
Each Seer  discovers that  manifestation is Pure Consciousness manifesting itself in ALL the different names and forms. . .One who goes beyond this Realization bears witness  to the fact that the experience of our core  Consciousness is Sat chit Ananda  (I exist, I am aware, I am Pure Bliss).      


Spiritual Joy  is the  balanced Yin/Yang  (feminine/masculine) aspect within our being capable of   housing 'super emotions'  and it's counterpart 'super motivations'.  This  Energy is like the  Wind beneath our Angel wings (symbolically speaking)  that carries one's Action and Compassionate Caring into the world of Form.
I had no names for what  motivated  my  feelings  during those very intense years.  I was very much aware  that the High Priestess archetype  (in me) compelled me to perform many  ceremonial rituals with tear-producing  intensity/sincerity whose  aim had everything to do with:  For the benefit of all beings . . . The only thing I  ever asked for myself was: Not Mine, Your Will Be Done!
 (* I am describing natural  surrender to Divine Will,  because by then my  heart was broken open).

This Sacred Feminine archetype is the symbol of one's balanced masculine and feminine energies.
Neither dominating/controlling  or passive. 
She is the mediator of the passage into Reality's supramental Depth. .  . This inner-Guide's serenity, clear-seeing, wisdom and high intuition, has been my Guiding Light - *is everyone's Guide when one gets in touch with it*.   Her only Intention is to Serve all beings in all domains of life.
She doesn't crave to be seen, doesn't seek attention from others. . .
She desires to give  away everything, expecting to receive nothing in return.
She is Solitary. . .

*  Edit-expanded 13/04/2017

Decided to include couple of examples of  what  'super motivations' &  'super emotions'  experiences  are/were  like for me.  Mystical experiences like these   confirmed for me that my subconscious mind is not split from the surface mind.

1.  Years ago I-Soul was standing  in the middle of  river's current flow . . .the instant I noticed some folks standing on river's bank I raised my right hand  and blessed their precious presence with the sign of the Holy Cross.

2.   I found myself on a boat with several 'uncouth men'. . .without a thought of 'doing' anything at all, I found myself floating  away from the boat . . . The Water's turquoise color shimmered invitingly. . . I turned towards the  men and with raised hand  Blessed their presence.

3. For many months at noon  (every day)  I would stand - wherever I found myself to be -- and chant certain Prayer/Blessings for all creation and its inhabitants.